I am struggling today for a few reasons..
For as long as I can remember when I am on my period I just want to EAT..Eat alllllllll day long!
This is the 4th time since I started this journey that I have been through this. I don't remember any of them being as hard as this one is..This whole thing of craving sugar,chocolate and carbs is NOT a myth..It is a VERY REAL thing and I am living it right now and I Fing hate it..I am NOT hungry I know that for a fact! But I just want to eat.. I go and stand in front of the fridge which is stupid because I know what is in there. But I do it anyways...Pause..Getting an orange! The funnies thing these little oranges have stickers on them that say "stocking stuffers"..How cute!!!!!! I have probably had 4 of these oranges today which is probably 1 BIG orange..I think they call these cuties??
See not hungry but I am eating.. I mean I am hungry but I should not be.. I had lunch 2 hours ago! A turkey sandwich,carrots and celery should be enough to get me by for 4 hours..
I am just an emotional wrech PERIOD!!!
On Wednesday I have a gyno appointment to deal with some female issues I have been dealing with for a while..The way that I am feeling is something that I have never dealt with before and the fact that it wont go away tells me I have something crazy going on and I am really freaked out to find out what it is!!!
Plus there is the issue of the "friend" !!!! I don't even want to get started on that...
I have tried to stay busy today.. I worked out. Been cleaning the house. I finished decorating..
Maybe I need a nap!
I guess I am just venting because I don't know what else to do..I really just can't get out of this mind frame of wanting to eat!!!
It really sucks being an emotional eater!
Monday, December 6, 2010
Early morning workout !
WoW I can't believe it is already 11AM...
I went to bed early last night. I had only been up for 6 hours but I wanted to get back to regular sleep schedule and believe it or not I actually slept. I woke up at about 5:30 this morning and could not get back to sleep so finally at about 630 I got up.
I sat here thinking about going on my daily walk which is not quite daily yet but I am working on it.
I have gotten to the point where I just don't think about it. I just get up and do it. I was not looking forward to going out in the cold though. So I decided to workout on my treadmill.
I own a treadmill that sits at either a 10 or 20% incline. You have no choice in the matter. It is meant to burn twice the calories in the same amount of time.
So I got my shoes on,grabbed my water and IPOD and into the workout room I went. It has been a while since I have been in there LOL..It was a bit dusty!
I started out at a 1 and walked for a few minutes and bumped it up to a 2.5..wow that got my heart pumping and I started to sweat. I noticed I was a bit wobbly with my balance so I took it down to 2.2..This seems to be a good pace for me..I was dieing and drench in sweat by 30 minutes and just over a mile. I decided to go for 40 minutes so that I could compare it with my walking app..
I am all confused. When we walk outside we do 2.2 miles in 40 minutes and burn like 230 calories.
I sweat a little but not like I did today on the treadmill. The app also says that I walk at a 3.3 and that just can't be accurate.
When I finished with the treadmill I had walked at 2.2-2.5 in 40 minutes. My distance was 1.3mile and I burned 350 calories..
So as you can see one of these is not very accurate or both.
How is it in 40 minutes outside I can do 1 more mile in the same amount of time??? On the treadmill I am walking at an incline but still..
What do you think?? I mean I was drenched..But when I walk outside it is also kinda chilly.
Regardless I am getting a good workout in no matter which I choose and I am sure I will continue to do both.
The reason I am being so anal about this is because this morning I sat there with my calculator trying to figure out how many calories I need to burn each day to lose 4-5 pounds in a week..I just want to see if I am capable of it and what I discovered is that if I want to lose 4 pounds in a week I will have to do what I did this morning on the treadmill 3 more times today..OMG..I just don't see that happening. I am sure that I will go for another 2 mile walk with Jack but that treadmill busted my ass this morning..Which I guess is a good thing..
This morning for breakfast I had an orange,banana and Kashi cereal...Then an hour later I had 2 slices of toast one with peanut butter and sugar free jam and the other with honey..I have been craving this which is odd since I an not a big bread eater...I had the calories for it..But yeah I need to not make it a habit.
Something else I need to mention is that I started my period 2 weeks early??? I mean heck I was just on it 16 days ago..I am not happy to say the least and the scale may not show a loss AGAIN..ERRRRRRR
So this is why I ate as I did this morning...I was so hungry! It's better then what I would have chosen in the past..
Today I plan to finish decorating and when I do I will take lots of pics..
I also may venture into my closet and see what clothes fit better if any.,
I went to bed early last night. I had only been up for 6 hours but I wanted to get back to regular sleep schedule and believe it or not I actually slept. I woke up at about 5:30 this morning and could not get back to sleep so finally at about 630 I got up.
I sat here thinking about going on my daily walk which is not quite daily yet but I am working on it.
I have gotten to the point where I just don't think about it. I just get up and do it. I was not looking forward to going out in the cold though. So I decided to workout on my treadmill.
I own a treadmill that sits at either a 10 or 20% incline. You have no choice in the matter. It is meant to burn twice the calories in the same amount of time.
So I got my shoes on,grabbed my water and IPOD and into the workout room I went. It has been a while since I have been in there LOL..It was a bit dusty!
I started out at a 1 and walked for a few minutes and bumped it up to a 2.5..wow that got my heart pumping and I started to sweat. I noticed I was a bit wobbly with my balance so I took it down to 2.2..This seems to be a good pace for me..I was dieing and drench in sweat by 30 minutes and just over a mile. I decided to go for 40 minutes so that I could compare it with my walking app..
I am all confused. When we walk outside we do 2.2 miles in 40 minutes and burn like 230 calories.
I sweat a little but not like I did today on the treadmill. The app also says that I walk at a 3.3 and that just can't be accurate.
When I finished with the treadmill I had walked at 2.2-2.5 in 40 minutes. My distance was 1.3mile and I burned 350 calories..
So as you can see one of these is not very accurate or both.
How is it in 40 minutes outside I can do 1 more mile in the same amount of time??? On the treadmill I am walking at an incline but still..
What do you think?? I mean I was drenched..But when I walk outside it is also kinda chilly.
Regardless I am getting a good workout in no matter which I choose and I am sure I will continue to do both.
The reason I am being so anal about this is because this morning I sat there with my calculator trying to figure out how many calories I need to burn each day to lose 4-5 pounds in a week..I just want to see if I am capable of it and what I discovered is that if I want to lose 4 pounds in a week I will have to do what I did this morning on the treadmill 3 more times today..OMG..I just don't see that happening. I am sure that I will go for another 2 mile walk with Jack but that treadmill busted my ass this morning..Which I guess is a good thing..
This morning for breakfast I had an orange,banana and Kashi cereal...Then an hour later I had 2 slices of toast one with peanut butter and sugar free jam and the other with honey..I have been craving this which is odd since I an not a big bread eater...I had the calories for it..But yeah I need to not make it a habit.
Something else I need to mention is that I started my period 2 weeks early??? I mean heck I was just on it 16 days ago..I am not happy to say the least and the scale may not show a loss AGAIN..ERRRRRRR
So this is why I ate as I did this morning...I was so hungry! It's better then what I would have chosen in the past..
Today I plan to finish decorating and when I do I will take lots of pics..
I also may venture into my closet and see what clothes fit better if any.,
Sunday, December 5, 2010
Friends or not??
This is my personal online Journal which I have chose to share with the world in hopes that someday I may be an inspiration and motivation to you as so many others have been to me!
So because it is my journal some of it may make no sense to some..
I spend many hours a day reading and posting on blogs and have gotten to know many people better then you would in every day life..Everyone is so busy. But we take these small moments every day to write down our feelings and thoughts for everyone to read..You get to know everyone more then you would in every day life. I have wrote about things that I tell no one else other then my husband of course. But even he does not read my Blog That I know of.Not that I would care if he did!
I have tried to be a good friend to everyone..Plus the emails that I get tell me that it is well received..
I am always open and honest with my friends..I tell them exactly how I feel without holding back..
I thought I was getting the same in return.
I shared a recent confrontation with a "friend"...I don't have many confrontations in my life.
I lead a pretty great life..I have great friends and a great family. I even have an amazing husband that I have been married to for almost 13 years ..
So when someone that I thought was my "friend" regardless of it being a friend I see all the time or one I talk to rarely I expect that friend to be as honest with me as I am with them..
I recently had a misunderstanding with an online acquaintance and spoke to this "friend" in detail about it.
To only reads weeks later that this "friend" is friends with this person..It's not that they are friends..That would be stupid. It's that I was made to believe they felt the same way about this person. So I went into detail about EVERYTHING!!
I feel a bit like this "friend" was never a friend to me and completely dishonest with me...Which makes me sad because I really liked this person. There are not many people in this life that we find to have the same morals and view on life as we do and when you find those people you should keep them as a part of your life..
So when they become the complete opposite of what or who you thought they were it is a complete disappointment..
UGHHHH I guess life goes on......But I am of course disappointed and partly sad.
So because it is my journal some of it may make no sense to some..
I spend many hours a day reading and posting on blogs and have gotten to know many people better then you would in every day life..Everyone is so busy. But we take these small moments every day to write down our feelings and thoughts for everyone to read..You get to know everyone more then you would in every day life. I have wrote about things that I tell no one else other then my husband of course. But even he does not read my Blog That I know of.Not that I would care if he did!
I have tried to be a good friend to everyone..Plus the emails that I get tell me that it is well received..
I am always open and honest with my friends..I tell them exactly how I feel without holding back..
I thought I was getting the same in return.
I shared a recent confrontation with a "friend"...I don't have many confrontations in my life.
I lead a pretty great life..I have great friends and a great family. I even have an amazing husband that I have been married to for almost 13 years ..
So when someone that I thought was my "friend" regardless of it being a friend I see all the time or one I talk to rarely I expect that friend to be as honest with me as I am with them..
I recently had a misunderstanding with an online acquaintance and spoke to this "friend" in detail about it.
To only reads weeks later that this "friend" is friends with this person..It's not that they are friends..That would be stupid. It's that I was made to believe they felt the same way about this person. So I went into detail about EVERYTHING!!
I feel a bit like this "friend" was never a friend to me and completely dishonest with me...Which makes me sad because I really liked this person. There are not many people in this life that we find to have the same morals and view on life as we do and when you find those people you should keep them as a part of your life..
So when they become the complete opposite of what or who you thought they were it is a complete disappointment..
UGHHHH I guess life goes on......But I am of course disappointed and partly sad.
Playing catch up! ( :
Last night I finished up my day by having a chicken sandwich and a bowl of California vegetables.
By the time I typed everything into my calorie counter I was sitting right at 600 calories for the day!!!
We decided to watch the movie Night and Day..I could be wrong. It was a GREAT movie. But then I was hungry again and since I had enough calories left I had 2 slices of bread one with Peanut Butter and Jelly and the other with honey I also had a orange and a small bowl of instant pudding which was disgusting and threw it away. My entire day ended at 1155 calories which is right where I want to be!
I have been dealing with severe fatigue and some female issues so sleep is what I have been wanting to do and I did ALLLLL day long!!!! I went to bed at 5 AM and slept till 7PM..
While I was sleeping Jack was working on the outside lights and is not quite done yet.
He also went grocery shopping for me..YEAH
Last night we went on a 2.2 mile walk in 40 minutes which beat our last time by 5 minutes.
In our town they are having a light competition and we came across a house with a ton of lights. So we had to stop and take pictures. They even had this huge cardboard wall cutout that went slightly into their garage and there was a Santa and Mrs.Claus taking pictures with the kids. They were even selling hot chocolate which I passed on. I just love Christmas time!
So far today I have had a piece of an orange that jack cut up. He is now making dinner..
This is my morning even though it is 7PM..I told you that trying to switch back to a day schedule will only last a short time..This always happens.
I am not stupid enough to walk by myself in the middle of the night. So if I get a walk in it won't be till sunrise..
By the time I typed everything into my calorie counter I was sitting right at 600 calories for the day!!!
We decided to watch the movie Night and Day..I could be wrong. It was a GREAT movie. But then I was hungry again and since I had enough calories left I had 2 slices of bread one with Peanut Butter and Jelly and the other with honey I also had a orange and a small bowl of instant pudding which was disgusting and threw it away. My entire day ended at 1155 calories which is right where I want to be!
I have been dealing with severe fatigue and some female issues so sleep is what I have been wanting to do and I did ALLLLL day long!!!! I went to bed at 5 AM and slept till 7PM..
While I was sleeping Jack was working on the outside lights and is not quite done yet.
He also went grocery shopping for me..YEAH
Last night we went on a 2.2 mile walk in 40 minutes which beat our last time by 5 minutes.
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| GETTING READY FOR OUR WALK |
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| WALKING APP |
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| AMAZING RIGHT????? |
So far today I have had a piece of an orange that jack cut up. He is now making dinner..
This is my morning even though it is 7PM..I told you that trying to switch back to a day schedule will only last a short time..This always happens.
I am not stupid enough to walk by myself in the middle of the night. So if I get a walk in it won't be till sunrise..
Saturday, December 4, 2010
ZUMBA
Ok..I just posted but now I got more to say..Questions are more like it.
I once had the dance game and not once did I never play it so he traded it after I told him he could. This was back when I was lazy and things have changed so maybe I will buy it again.
Then he mentioned a game called ZUMBA. I know I have heard other bloggers talk about it. So I Iooked up the website.. WoW that is a very popular game. But I did not see a game for PS3. So I did a google search and came across it..Can anyone tell me what it is like?
Jack is wanting the MOVE for the PS3.. I guess you can also use it with ZUMBA.
I am looking for little ways to burn some more calories so this may be it for me..
So far today I have had an Orange and a Banana.
Plus I need to give a HUGE shout out to my friend and fellow blogger TRISHA who is doing an amazing job at losing the pounds..She is my inspiration every day! So I want to give here this to say thanks..( :
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