I said I would NEVER put the weight back on and NEVER go back to eating the way that I was..
Never say never..I should have learned that a long time ago.
LIFE can throw you some SERIOUS curve balls and if you are not prepared to deal with them emotionally and mentally YOU WILL go back to old habits just as I did.. I can guarantee you that!!!
June 1st..That was my day..That was the day that my husband told me that he lost his job.
I seen it coming for a while.. Even though it seemed as though he had job security..He was always REALLY busy. Had more work then he could keep up with. There was just little clues here and there. Like no overtime.. Things like that. Especially when he worked for a HUGE corporation.
He worked there for 7 years! So it was a big adjustment to make. We knew right off that we would have to move. We would not be able to afford where we were living. We had been needing and wanting to move anyways and it just gave us that extra push. With me on Disability and my husband now on Unemployment. Which let me tell you did not actually kick in till 2 weeks ago..Imagine the stress we have been under the last few months..We did not even know if we would qualify for another place to live!
So what did I do????I did what I do best!!! I ATE MY EMOTIONS!!!
Sure for the first week or so I cried EVERYDAY..So much so I could not catch my breath.
It is a VERY scary situation to be in to feel as though you are going to be homeless..
People would say.. What about family?? Well neither I nor my husband have ever been ones to involve our families in our personal business. We keep as much as possible to ourselves. NO..if it came down to it they would not put us out on the street.
Lets just say we are very grateful that some things lined up the way that they did financially because if they had not..Well.....I don't even want to think about that!
About 2 weeks ago we finally got all moved into our new place which is a Condo and about 1000 ft smaller than our last home and that has taken some adjustment.
We had movers do most of the moving and when I came into the place you could not walk..It was CRAZY!! I did not know how I was going to do it. The first Morning after I got up and spent 12 hours just on the kitchen. I have A LOT of kitchen stuff!
It is getting there..
A few days ago I was getting dressed to go to Target.. I am so HAPPY to have a Target down the street again. We were going to go have dinner and go to Target. I am just happy to be able to go anywhere and then be back home in 5-10 min instead of 45 minutes! Anyways. Jack walks in the room as I am getting dressed and asks what wrong? "I am so upset because all of my clothes are TOO BIG" Jack: Well that is better then too small right?
I guess at some point when you lose weight you just want you clothes to fit PERIOD!!
BUT what I am noticing right now is that I have gained weight.. I have been noticing it for a few weeks. My shorts are a bit tight.. The new ones..My bras are also a bit snug. I also just feel a bit bloated.
I have not been weighing. the scales have been packed. Plus when you eat WHATEVER..WHENEVER..Well, why weigh? I knew that I was up a couple of pounds from the last time I weighed.
Right now it is TOM..OH JOY!!! So as of right now it won't be accurate but I did dig out the scale.
Since June1st I have ate what I wanted in moderation. I still eat breakfast the same as always and lunch when I do eat lunch. Dinner is what gets me and eating ice cream at night. The ice cream at night has always been a down fall of mine and I fear it always will be and to tell you the truth I am OK with that.
But we have ate out A LOT and picked up food etc...So not the healthiest.
Two night ago I got on the scale at 179
This morning it read 176.5
I am on the tail end of TOM..
I will weigh again on Monday which is my official weigh in day. So in 2 Months and 10 days I gained somewhere around 6.5 pounds.
Which trust me!! I am NOT happy about! I was so close to the 160's and if I had stayed on course I would now be in the 150's. ...MAYBE.
So..I had my fun? If that is what I should call it. These last few months have been anything but fun!
It's time to get back to eating healthy and dropping the pounds and blogging and getting caught back up with all of you.