Friday, June 3, 2011

What a disaster!! But atleast I am still losing ( ;

It is not Monday but it is has been a while has I have done a weigh in ..So I figured today was good as any..My current weight this morning was 171.5..I am so close to the 160..I just can't wait!!! I don't think I have been in the 60's since High School!!!! ..I am now in a size 14..It has been a while! I have not even bought any new clothes! I have one pair of shorts that are a size Junior 15/16..Which are a 14. I can still wear my 16 shorts though they are baggy.. I am not going to go buy a bunch of new shorts right now.Though I did try some on. That is how I know what size I am .I seem to be losing from my waist pretty fast so I want to wait and see how the next few weeks go..PLUS..I cant really afford it right now..I can afford to go to walmart and pick up a couple pars or shorts if I need to. But I will wait!

Now to the crappy news as to where I have been.. I have received a few emails and figured I would answer them all at once..Thanks for checking up on me.

Besides just having a lot going on..Day to day stuff which now seems like nothing..I got a call from Jack on Wednesday Morning.I was still sleeping..It came from his cell phone and he is not aloud to take his cell phone into work. So if he calls from his cell. It usually means that he is out buying something for the company like at COSCO or he is on a break..I did not get to the phone at first because I was sleeping.So I waited for a sec to see if a message would come through..Then I called him back..First thing he said was did you get my message,,living in this HELL HOLE called maricopa..We don't get message sometimes even text messages or calls.. Come to think of it..I still have not got the message..Anyways..The next thing he says to me..I GOT LAYED OFF..I said you are kidding right? I seriously thought he was joking!!! HE WAS NOT!!! I mean I had seen this coming for a very long time.
It was always my very greatest fear and now it has come true.
There are so many emotions that come with this..I am scared to dead! I feel as though we are going to be homeless by the end of the month..We can't stay in the current home we live in. We can't afford to live here. We live from pay check to pay check as it is.
Yet on the other hand..We have Jack who is ANGRY,SAD, PISSED OFF, Then HUMMIMG....You heard me right..HUMMING. He HATED working there!! It sucked the life out of him!!
I have certain family members like my grandmother who has said in the past..Is Jack OK??He don't look good? Because most days he hated life..He hated that job that much! But we needed the income and the insurance..NOW..He has no choice to go back.. They made that decision for him.
So on one hand. He is stressed out because he has all the weight on his shoulders of finding another job. But on the other hand he is glad to not be going back there. Now if they called tomorrow and said come back..Of course he would go!

We both have so much going through our heads right now as to what to do..We never really expected this to happen that we would have to scramble to find a place to live and pack and have a garage sell etc etc etc...I am so overwhelmed right now..The real kicker!!! We just signed a year lease LAST MONTH!! So we are praying that he will let us out of it! It is just a one guy sort of thing. He seems very nice..When we did sign the lease we told him that we wanted to only do a 6 Month and he said after 6 Months we could go Month to Month.So I hope he will just take the deposit and call it even.
But if jack does not find something we are up shit creek. So Right now we are moving! Jack went and got boxes this morning from a work friend. We will probably have a garage sell this next weekend. I cry thinking about everything I have to get rid of..It is just materialistic things..More of what I am crying about..Is the fact that I MYSELF have to do all of this. We did out last move by ourselves. I guess we will do it again. The only difference is this time I fear we have no home to go to! I will also be dead by the time it all over! My MS WILL NOT HOLD UP THROUGH THIS!!!  I have already been in bed the last 2 days!

I am trying to stay strong for him..He ALWAYS seems to walk in the moment that I am upset..I can go all day with out crying and the second I do is when he walks in!!


  1. I'm so sorry that you are having to deal with all the stuff you are. I will keep you in my prayers and hope that something will come along and you won't have to move. Hang in there girl..((hugs))

  2. Ohhhhh Honry.... I'm sooo sorry you're going through this... (((huggggssss))) to you... You are both in my prayers....

  3. *hugs* Hon, I have been in your shoes. My husband lost his job last year ten days before our wedding. Through networking it took him a couple of months but he did find a new job. Granted the new job was a $12000 a year paycut but it was a job at least. We're still dealing with the ramifications of that paycut but are managing to keep a roof over our heads. I know you two will persevere.

    My best advice it to take a good, long look at your budget and see if there is anything you can cut or find places where you can save money. For us, we set our thermostat 5 degrees higher so we don't spend as much on electricity. And I have started couponing to save a little money at the grocery store.

    Hang in there hon! I totally understand that things look bleak right now, but I promise it will get better.

  4. No words I say can make it better, but I am sorry you are going through this. Stress + MS = NO GOOD, so TRY to calm down and take it one step at a time. Do you have family nearby that you can stay with for awhile? Maybe he will find work sooner than you're anticipating. My husband & I went through a similar situation last year. He got laid off and I had just started working part-time to go to nursing school full-time. It was NOT good timing, as if I wasn't nervous enough about starting school and now I had to worry about finances, my MS flaring up, etc. We moved in with my parents shortly after I started school and he got a BETTER job and is so happy with it! He HATED his last job. We are now ready to start paying off some credit cards and hopefully buy a house in a year when I'm done with school. The point of my story is........ everything happens for a may be going through a rough time right now, but it will turn around. It may not seem like it now, but this may be a blessing in disguise.
    You are in my prayers!!!!!


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