Thursday, May 26, 2011

I sat here for a few minutes not knowing how to start this post..
Just like I have not known how to start most of my days for the last few months.
I have been lost~!

Somewhere along the line I slowly fell off course. I never completely said I am done..
I never quite..I never threw in the towel..
But we all know that point where we look back and say where did we go wrong.
Well I am at that point.
I have gained no weight..I have not stopped eating healthy. But I HAVE had a few slip ups..I have had many days of I just don't care.
I miss that fire..That intense WANT and knowing that I can do anything that I set my mind to. That I can for once in my life see finish line..That had all gone away.

I have all the knowledge to get to where I need to be..
I have done all the research..I have the plan the works for ME!
Then life happened..That may sound like an excuse..but when you are dealing with extreme pain,financial issues etc and it is all thrown at you at once. The last thing I wanted to think about was food or my program.I have since realized that if this is ever going to work I have learn to deal with my emotions and still stick with my program. The worst thing for me is to be physically stressed out with my MS.. Then to be making it worse with eating unhealthy as well..
During this time there were days where I said I just don't care and we ate out at Mexican restaurants and ate pizza or Taco Bell..I have to be honest here in saying..I just don't think that I can ever say that I will NEVER EVER again go to out favorite Mexican food or eat pizza..But I did all of this in one month.

I am still dealing with dental issues..Not sure yet what is going on there.
Dental pain is hard to deal with!! So if you are putting it off. Take care of it now.

I did weigh on Monday and I was down to 174.5 and this morning it said 173.5 So the scale is moving again..I look forward to getting into the 160's.
I am back in the right mind frame..The package that I ordered should arrive today or tomorrow..YEAH
Then I will let you know what I ordered!

I also need to get on that treadmill.. I am so bad about the exercise..It is so hard on me..Worse with the heat now! It just makes me so sick.
But I am really feeling like I am back to where I was 3 months ago.
To be excited to the scale get moving again.Its a great thing!


  1. I totally relate to this post. This month is just me maintaining between 1-2 lbs. I'm hoping June means new beginnings :)

  2. We all sit where you are from time to time, so can understand and relate to this just happy to here that you will never give up!!!

  3. Everyone lands at this place, more than once. You just stand up, dust yourself off, and keep moving. You have been doing so great. no, eating out that many times in one month wasn't the best option, however, no one is in your shoes. no one knows the pain you are dealing with right now. So, if you have to take a day away from cooking and go out to eat, do it. you stayed with healthy options, so really it wasn't as terrible as it could have been. And as you said yourself, it isn't like you are never going to have these foods in your life again. Keep your chin up! You are doing great and will continue to do great.

  4. I am a new follower, my name is Melissa. I was diagnosed with MS in 2000 and struggle with weight issues myself. I'd love to keep in contact with you! We apparently have a lot in common!!


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