Tuesday, April 26, 2011

Week of meals In pictures...

I did not take as many pictures this week as I had hoped. Jack makes a lot of the meals and by the time we would sit down to eat I would forget to take a picture. So for the most part this week you get breakfast. This week I will work on taking more pictures of dinner! As you will see it is ALWAYS fruit and GREEK YOGURT and then either Steel cut oats with PB2 and Agave or for a while there I was eating a cereal that was made with Flax.(DRY) Just last night I bought a big bag of ground Flax so this morning I made steel cut oats with Flax,Almond Butter and Agave..It was delish!
Not Pictured..Will be next week..(  :





Green Tea,Steel Cut Oats,Banana Agave








No sugar added ice cream and chocolate PB2


Kashi TLC Cookie



Turkey and mustard on sourdough


Monday, April 25, 2011

Easter...Food and more food!

Had a great Easter Sunday at  my Aunts with my Family! All good intentions to eat healthy but it did not exactly happen that way!
I ate what was there which included sides made with mayonnaise..Everything was really good! Not even on Christmas or Thanksgiving do I think that I ate what I did yesterday. Then we left and went to my Grandmothers and she had this amazing cobbler that I just had to try.. That did me in!!! Heck ONE DAY..I won't beat myself up about it..On our way home last night we stoped at Whole Foods and I bought a big bag of ground flax seed,small packet almond butter (try),strawberries,really raw honey,pasta sauce and whole grain pasta...

This morning I made my steel cut oats added in 2Tbs of Flax..It says that is a serving size. Then I added 1/2 the packet of almond butter and some agave..It was really good...!!!! I also had fruit and my Greek Yogurt... of course.The only thing is the ratio of flax,oats to almond butter...I just could not taste it. So it was wasted calories. I should have just used the whole packet. I was trying to save calories but instead I lost the taste all together!

It was really nice this morning after yesterdays free for all to get back to my healthy eating that is for sure!!!!! The food was good..But I use to eat like that all the time or at least close to it..That is how I got to over 200 pounds and it would be really easy to go back that way again..
I was not even done eating my meal and my stomach was killing me!!!
Then what did I bring???Cookies!!! I did not make them.. I bought them on the way there. We just have A LOT going on right now and did not have a chance to make anything. So on the way I stoped at walmart. I ate TWO of the cookies..Same thing..My stomach was killing me..But by the time I ate the cobbler at my grandmothers my stomach was ALLLLL ADJUSTED...That did not take long!!!!

Today I am back to the program and that is what is different from now to every other time I EVER tried to lose weight..The second I put something into my mouth that was considered a NON "diet" food that was it...IT WAS OVER!!!! Maybe I was just not ready?

The last few weeks have been HARD!! I have NOT been eating as well as I should. It goes right back to my emotional eating.When I stress I eat! When I am sad I eat!..Not sure what it will take for me to get over this. I am definitely much better.I would never have lost the weight that I have if I was still up all night eating my physical pain away. Because trust me..When I am in PHYSICAL pain what I WANT to do is EAT..That is something I am dealing with and it is HARD!!! It is a DAILY battle one I hope that I overcome some day very soon and one I am not sure I can overcome on my own because the physical pain is not going anywhere and food is not going anywhere either. So when you are alone as many hours any given day as I am....That is a lot of time to force yourself to do other things then eat!!!

Summer has also started here in Arizona and living with MS the heat is really hard on me..So just a lot going on..Plus stuff I am just NOT talking about for privacy reasons..I will adjust and get back to my regular routine. I have to!!! That scale needs to get moving again! I have a GOAL and I need to reach that goal!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Wedding Dress 13 years and 35 Pounds ago!

The other day I decided it was time to clean out the garage..We have been wanting to have a garage sell and our garage is a mess..Plus it is summer here now and the cars need to get in the garage..While doing this I came across my wedding dress. Now you may be thinking..Wedding dress in the garage in Arizona?? Well right after I got married 13 years ago I had it sealed in one of those boxes..Regardless years ago I opened it..Don't waist your money. It really was just wrapped in plastic twice and double boxed which I could have done on my own for $100...
So after losing a total of 35 pounds since last summer I decided that I would try it on. My body has changed since I was 21 years old that is for sure. So I had no idea how it would fit..So if you are now in early 20's and your mom tells you that her body changes..It is TRUE with or WITHOUT having children!
So I drug the thing in the house and pressed play on my video camera..


I felt at the time that the dress fit ok..But looking back..I was stuffed into that dress!! That seamstress did everything she could to make sure that she could cover up all the bunching that was caused by my hips being so wide that the dress would not lay flat. The worst of it was in the back and was covered by the bow. Today when I tried on the dress it fit so much different!! I still love the dress if not more!



I notice a lot in  my arms..!



Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Emotional eating. Just when I think I have it under control!

How do you know when standing in front of the fridge looking for something to eat has gone from just being hungry to full blown emotional eating and how do you stop it before it gets out of control??
I seem to have gone from doing great to being full blown sick from eating myself into a coma!
I thought I knew all the signs to look for!! I just told them to you and myself just the other day! " If you look for junk food you are NOT hungry! If you want an actual meal then you are hungry" So then what went wrong?" I'll tell you what went wrong....LIFE!!!
The problem is I did not see it coming and did not expect it and I should have. I was not prepared to deal with it. I am still not prepared to deal with it.

We are dealing with some financial issues that are beyond our control. As I have told you all before Jack usually keeps this all to himself but sometimes he has no choice but to tell me. Because of the fact I don't EVER deal with financial responsibilities in our household when I do have to every now and then it causes me MAJOR stress because I am NOT use to it.. I am sure you can understand that. This is just the way things have been for us over the years. When I met my husband he had been on his own for years. So he just continued to pay the bills.

I in general don't handle stress well..I am working on it! It is part of the new me. It will not happen over night. Just like losing weight will not happen over night.

This is sort of like a puzzle. Without all the pieces the puzzle will NEVER be completed.
I hold all the puzzle pieces. I am working on one puzzle one piece at a time. Each piece is different..takes on a different problem, issue and solution. When I am done and all the puzzle pieces fit together I will glue them together so that it will NEVER AGAIN FALL APART!!!

So I stand in front of the fridge..I grab a bowl of ice cream. I always seem to think that I have to have ice cream AFTER I eat a meal..Why is that??? Because I have a sweet tooth? I do have that!
The last 2 days have been the worst days of emotional eating that I have had in the last 35 weeks!!!! Yesterday I ate ice cream 3 TIMES!! Right now I am craving it as I write. I ate so much more then my body wanted me to that I was SICK last night! I cannot say that I binged..Because I have NEVER been a binge eater..But did I eat when I was NOT hungry that I did do..I ate out of being upset,sad,angry,depressed,frightened and tired!

So you would think after 7 months I would have this under control? So what does it take? Clearly time is not the answer.
Starting tomorrow I am back to counting calories. I am back to writing down everything that I eat. Tracking everything that I eat. Sugar is clearly my enemy. I crave sugar. This I do know. When I stand in the kitchen I am not craving eggs or cheese...I am craving sugar..Anything sweet! I don't know if I can cut sugar from my diet and not go into a complete melt down! Maybe this is what I need to do to shock my system?

Open to suggestions!

Monday, April 18, 2011

Some meals..PAST

These are some pictures that never got posted. I thought I would post them before I start posting my weekly meals. You will notice we usually eat in front of the TV. We Always have. The kitchen table is Jacks art table.....( ;






Strawberries Banana Orange




Sunday, April 17, 2011

Ladies.... I need your advice!!

I went to my DOC Thursday!

I stepped on the scale at 180.2..UGH That was NOT nice to see....
The reason being it was at 4PM...Plus it was in the middle of TOM..
Still I knew what my true weight was!
This morning I am still up by 2 pounds! Putting me at 177.
As long as I stay away from that 180 I am happy for now!

I am actually thinking of NOT weighing on Monday..WHY you may ask? WELL because I can do that..
But the real reason..I want to give my body a week to adjust from from TOM and get back to what I know my TRUE weight really is..This whole weight thing can be a real mind F***K and to avoid being depressed for a week I may just skip it!...I may weigh on Tuesday..Just not on Monday.But since MONDAY is my OFFICIAL weigh day by weighing on Tuesday or Wednesday I won't feel so pressured or stressed about the weight.

I am still happy with the way my month is going!..
I know that I need to get on my treadmill..I am dealing with some Knee issues and that is NOT an excuse. I wish it was! This is pain that happens when I am just sitting there. So I am thinking that I may need to go see a doc for this.
I wake up in agony!
I have been doing free weights with 3LB weights and working my upper body just not as much as I should. So I am going to work on increasing that! Same goes with my lower body. I have started using ankle weights.( Knee pain was before I started using weights)
I have not noticed any increase in fatigue with using weights which is a good thing. So I will continue with this.

The treadmill is what is so hard on me and is also so hard to get going..The thing now sits in my living room thanks to my amazing husband for moving it in there for me. That was no easy task. He had to take it apart and put it back together.So I look at this thing all the time. Sometimes I think that if it was not a TREAD climber maybe I would be more likely to get on it..But every time I get on it..I am going for a hike!!!You get a better workout in half the time..But when you have fatigue like I do EVERYDAY and most days just getting in the shower is a pain in the ass! Well...Getting on the treadmill is not on the top of my list.
I have planned to do it when I first get up. That has not worked because I always have to eat when I first get up. If I don't I am nauseated. Then I end up on the computer..Then it just gets away from me.
Another reason is going to sound stupid to some and some will understand.
I have explained my fatigue and what it takes to just take a shower. Well have you noticed how much hair I have?? When you work out you sweat!! I can't work out and NOT take a shower! So I would have to not only get on the treadmill I would have to then shower after. PLUS WASH MY HAIR..Not only shower every day..But wash my hair EVERY DAY!! When right now I wash my hair every 3 days.
So please...If anyone has any advice on this I am listening....because I could really use it!
I know this may sound stupid to some.I get that. But when you have fatigue from MS like I do and I already have issues with getting on the treadmill. Now I am suppose to shower after and wash my hair!!!
I have to say this is probably the main issue..But it has to do with FATIGUE..Not the shower..If that makes sense..The fatigue causes the shower issues! I use to LOVE my showers..I use to shower twice a day. I have tried buying great products so that I will enjoy my showers more. I recently bought a $12 Alba Lavender shower soap..LOVE IT!! So that has helped a bit! Cutting my hair...WONT HAPPEN..(  :..Maybe one day!

I feel I am still on track to 10 pound in the month of April!
I just need to get on that Treadmill and use my weights EVERYDAY like I said I would!

Thursday, April 14, 2011

My meals in pictures..( : edited

I tried out a new Comment form that did not go over well for ME...So you will now be able to comment and SEE your comments on the post! On post AFTER this one!

Starting next week I am going to start documenting everything that I eat. I mean EVERYTHING!! I will take a picture of everything that I put into my mouth before I do so. This will be an easy task..I will keep a camera in the kitchen and when I go to grab something to eat I will set it down take a picture and at the end of the week I will post every picture. This way you all get an idea of what my diet consist of. The good and the bad. Yes there is bad in there too.. Believe it or not you can loose weight eating the bad.. It is called life!
I already have some pictures that I have taken over time that never made it into the blog. So I plan to post all of those come next Monday.... I think. Then starting every Tuesday after that is when I will post my weekly meals. This is the plan so far. The day may change. Since Monday is my weigh day I figured Tuesday would be a good day. But Monday could work as well.. I guess I will figure it out as I go along. I think this will also help keep me accountable and also help to show me what needs improvement in my diet. I already know that I need to up my vegetable intake. I have been slacking there only because we have been slaking on making dinner and have ordered Taco Bell a few times..The healthy version. Or we will make Mexican food at home and you just don’t get many vegetables from Mexican food..The other one has been Whole wheat pasta, Ground Turkey and sauce, Ricotta layered in ramekins..My husband’s loves them but again not getting in my vegetables.. Call it laziness!! So I have some Changes that I need to make so that I can be more healthy as I am dropping the pounds..I don’t want to be skinny and unhealthy!
So look forward to lots of pictures once a week!

Tuesday, April 12, 2011

35 POUNDS

Have you ever done a post that just disappears?? WELLL..I typed one out for an hour and it did just that!!
What happened to auto save??

So there will be no way I will remember exactly what I typed nor do I want to..UGH!!
So this will be the short of it!

35 POUNDS That is my total weight loss since I started on this journey..OK I hate the word JOURNEY..
I just do..I need to come up with my OWN word for my weight loss "journey"
I started back in summer 2010 at 210 POUNDS!! HOLLY COW!!! This was an all time high!
I have never seen anything higher on the scale. So if I have weighed more then that I have not seen it.
When I decided to do my blog in September I weighed 203 Pounds..So I had already lost a few pounds.
So in TOTAL it is 35 POUNDS..Just BLOWS me AWAY that I have lost that much weight!

Sometimes I think back to what we use to eat and think OK maybe I did not eat all that different?
Then I REALLY start to think about it...
Fast Food..McDonald's French Fries and Chicken Nuggets all the time
BIG bags of Starburst in 2-3 days
I would Bake Cheesecakes, Key Lime Pies, and Cookies and we ate them all
Always had Pastries in the house
Dinner was a 5 course meal, Meat,Packaged Potatoes,Corn,Salad W/dressing,croutons,cheese, and then we had bread usually the kind in the tube that you bake in the oven because I shopped with coupons so I always got them on sale for $.25..Then we would top then with butter and Jelly
We would order out Pizza and every Friday night we watched Ghost Whisper and got Panda Express.I do mean EVERY FRIDAY..
I would munch from the time Jack went to bed till the time I did 8 hours later..This out of boredom.
We went through GALLONS of regular ice cream..
THE LIST GOES ON !!!!

I am still to this day battling my emotional eating..But it is 90% better.. I never would have thought that I would even be where I am at right now..After dinner I will have a bowl of no sugar added ice cream. Then I don't eat for the rest of the night.. Do ALL of my nights go that way?? NO..It is a work in progress..But I have gone from eating 8 hours straight to NOT..That is a BIG deal!!! I can now say to myself.."you are not hungry" "If you don't want that apple then you are not hungry" If I am going to choose to eat chocolate or ice cream or something fattening over something healthy then I know that I am doing it for emotional reasons. But if I go to the fridge and try and find something healthy then I know that I am actually hungry..It does not always work and I sometimes go for the sugary food like when TOM is around and my emotions are all over the place LIKE RIGHT NOW.. I am SAD, DEPRESSED, and feel like the world sucks at this very moment..So I am trying to keep my food decisions in check today.
Jack made dinner tonight which consisted of Salmon,Finger Potatoes, and Edamame...For breakfast I had a Greek Yogurt and some OJ..That is all I have had today because I am once again on a wacky sleep schedule and was not up till 5PM..So Dinner was actually lunch.Right now I am craving ice cream..So soon I will probably have some of that..But I seem to have my emotional eating in check tonight.

On Thursday I have a doctors appointment..I use to go every month for the last 6 years. Then we went to every 2 months for the last years. It has been nice to go in with GOOD news instead of always BAD..I get to tell him what my weight loss was since the last time I seen him! It usually ends up being around 10 pounds..I think it will be about 8 this time.

Monday, April 11, 2011

Weigh-IN

♥BRAIN♥ If you treat it right and feed it the right foods..It is amazing what it is capable of! Even healing itself!


So my predictions were RIGHT!!!
175 POUNDS...A loss of 1.5 POUNDS!!  AMAZING!!! I am truly Grateful!

Last night I had said that I was thinking that maybe I was going to start my period..That TOM was on it's way because it seemed as though it had been a while and the fact out of no where I am all of a sudden gaining back what I had lost one pound at a time.Just as I had lost it..Well I woke up early this morning about to pee my pants! Then later on the same thing when I finally did decided to get up for the day. I was not sure what the scale was going to say because by now I had figured out that TOM had started!! Yeah for me!
So I was happy to see what I did..I actually had to do a double take..Hahaha..I mean after just yesterday it reading 179.5.. I was FREAKING OUT!!! That I was going to see that 180 AGAIN and I DID NOT want that!!! The farther away I get from it the better!

On Saturday night we had gone to a Mexican restaurant called Abuelos..We have been before and it was a DISASTER.. So much so that the manger sent us $40 in gift cards. So we had a FREE night out coming to us for about a month or two..So we decided to use it on Saturday..I have never ordered Fajitas at a restaurant or EVER and they were AMAZING..So now we will go back.They seemed pretty healthy if you don't eat the sour cream or cheese.
We don't get out as much as we would like. Me with my MS.. You all have read what it takes for me to leave the house these days..Then there is my husband who has debilitating back and leg pain..Sunday we were SUPPOSE to have gone to my mom's Birthday party..I had to get up by 7AM on a SUNDAY to be there by 2PM..I succeeded..All I had left to do was put on my clothes..But my husband was NOT doing well..So I went through all of that for NADA...That's OK though..I slept really good that night! But missed my mom's birthday..) : We will just take her out to dinner.
So my goal to lose 10 pounds in one month is still going as planned..
The treadmill not so much..I need to work on that..
The free weights I am doing a few times a week and have gained 1/2in in my right arm! I measure at the roundest point.

DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW EXCITED I AM TO SEE THE 60's ??????

Sunday, April 10, 2011

Could Not Last Forever!! I WISH!!!!

I think I have let myself get comfortable this week!
This has happened before.. I start to see HUGE losses..Pound after pound..Well not like this crazy nonsense..But losing weight..Then I get comfortable because I think in the back of my mind that it will just keep happening..That the pounds will just keep dropping off..

This week has been completely WEIRD..Every time I would step on the scale I would be down another pound!! I mean I am grateful..My clothes are all HUGE!! Shorts that fit just weeks ago are now baggy,Most of my jeans no longer fit..90% of my shirts are now TENTS..I have lost another inch in my thighs since the last time I did measurements. Just weeks ago!!! BLOWS ME AWAY!!! So if this is happening for no apparent reason why would it stop?? Well it has and it has inched up..Not by much and I won't know the final number till tomorrow..I could be a pound down,over or right where I was last week.
I also know TOM should be here. It seems like it has been a while.So it may be that I am adding a bit of water weight..Tomorrow will tell the tale!

I have a lot of clothes now that are too big and we are getting ready to have a garage sell..I told Jack that I really don't want to part with them because then when I lose all my weight I won't have the fun of trying all those clothes back on. He agreed it was not worth selling at a garage sell and to hold onto them. I was also thinking that most of then are expensive,TORID,Lane Bryant Clothing..Most New or close to it..So Maybe I will have some giveaways when I reach goal?? Would that be a good idea? I have TORID jeans,tops,shorts and LaneBryant Jeans..Sorry not a big fan of THEIR clothing..It just fits we wrong..I am kinda petite..But over weight. If that makes sense and their clothes are always way to long and just don't fit right.

I am going to have lots of shopping to do.. When I put on an old pair of jeans..It is AMAZING how my body has changed!

Thursday, April 7, 2011

I just can't believe it!!!!

I stepped on the scale again this morning and can you believe I am down ANOTHER POUND!!!! 175.5 I don't weigh till Monday..So it could be even more by then!
I just DO NOT want to jinx anything..I don't believe in any of that..But you know what I mean!
It took me so long to get out of the 80's 13 WEEKS to be exact!!
So what is different for the 70's..My hubby Jack has said maybe my metabolism has changed? I know something has changed because I feel different.. I have a TON more energy..
For the first time in YEARS I have more energy then I have EVER had..I mean don't get me wrong I am NOT miraculously healed! I wish to god I was! But for the last I would say month or a little more my fatigue has been so much better!
For the last year I have had the worst fatigue..We moved in to our current house a year ago and I feel as if we moved in and I sat down on the sofa and never moved and I am being dead serious!!!
The last month I have had very weird things that have been happening..I had that very odd bout with insomnia to where I could not sleep for days..I was pacing the house and cleaning like a manic and from then on I had it here and there but the days in between I actually felt semi-normal..Like I could exercise,clean my house,take a shower,cook..Just do things that everyone else does and not want to keel over after..

The only person that actually knows my life and how badly I deal with fatigue and MS symptoms is my husband..If we have an outing I have to plan ahead for those..It is a process..It is a sort of behind the scenes if you will..No one can just call and say come over and have dinner and I jump in the shower and be right over..My life does not work that way..For days leading up to an event,outing,dinner, family function etc I have to do NOTHING..and I do mean NOTHING!!!!!!! SLEEP...Two days before I take a shower and wash my hair. I cant do that the day before because that would be too much. So I do that TWO days before..Then the day before I take a shower and my hair does not have to be done. So the energy was saved there. Come the day of said event I do NOTHING until a few hours before we have to leave and then I will put on my makeup..Remember hair was done a few days ago..I then rest for another hour after the makeup is done and then I get dressed..I then hopefully have an hour to get done whatever I have to do..Gather my belonging,purse,jacket,shoes,go to the bathroom,primp..Anything I am taking with me..WE ARE ALWAYS LATE!!!!!

So to have this new found ENERGY is absolutely AMAZING!!! How long it will last?? I have no idea..I am just loving every minute of it! It does not last all day..It comes in spurts..Like right now. I have been on the sofa since I got up..So today is an ehhh day.. Yesterday was a good day..I am hoping for a good day tomorrow..We are having a walk through in our house.. So I would like to tidy up a bit!

So is it possible that my new energy is the reason for my sudden weight loss???
No matter what the reasons may be I am so very grateful and I just hope it keeps moving downward!
I have also wondered still if this is from the REALLY RAW HONEY..According to their website others have had similar side effects..So maybe the energy and even the fact that I am not having my nightly allergies is from the honey..?
Just when I am about to get the EAT CLEAN book and really start following the exact program and not just what I read on the Internet and the OXYGEN mag..I mean what do I do?? Do I continue with the honey? I mean what else could it be? There is nothing else that I have changed!

Monday, April 4, 2011

Weigh In...April Goals

I have not really been doing anything different but boy am I grateful!!!

Today's weigh in....176.5 It also said 176 but I will just go with the first one..
I have another scale and it too said BOTH so who the heck knows!!!!
I am happy regardless..That is another 2.5 Pounds lost this week!!!!

Thanks for all the comments on my progress photos..It really means a lot to me..
The more I look the more changes that I see..The one change that I am really happy about is that I don't have that bra fat..! I am wearing the same bra in both pictures..I also noticed that my butt changed quite a bit...Hahah..Plus the shorts got quite bigger. Many changes that I notice as Iook at the pictures..One of the things that I had noticed on my own long ago was that my stomach had shrunk up top under my breast that is also apparent in the photos..Plus my boobs really deflated..I was shocked about that when I did my measurements!! But wow you can really see that in my pictures!!!
So I will probably wait another 2-3 months and then I will take more pictures..Doing it every month for me just is not enough..I don't want to sit and have to squint hoping to see change..yah know!

APRIL GOALS!!!

Lose 10 Pounds...I can do this!!!!
Treadmill 20 minutes a day 3 days a week..I have a tread climber at 10-20%.It's a workout!
Upper Body with weights/Lower Body. Alternating by day
Continue to eat clean...BUY THE BOOK!!!!

These goals are ones that I can stick too..In the past I make goals that are so far out of my reach or send my MS in to a flare..So I am going with this! If I can handle more I will do more!
Last night I did arms with 3LB weights and I felt great just because I did it! I did 3 sets of 15 and trust me I felt it..I almost bought the 5Lb..I have 5LB..I have every pound..But I wanted the pretty pink weights..Haha..So I bought pretty pink 3Lb weights and trust me they are enough for me right now..

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Progress Pictures !!

I had originally planned to do these pictures every month but then I decided that a months time would not show very much..So I actually forgot!!!!

Last night I took these pictures..
For some reason I really was not expecting much of a change I don't know why!
But WoW was I ever wrong!
I notice it the most in my Stomach,Bust,Butt!
The first set was taken December 17,2010..The second set was taken April 2,2011

BEFORE  188                                                                          AFTER   176





Saturday, April 2, 2011

Reaching Goal??

♥Feet♥

Thankfully it seems the 80's are gone for good!!!      HALLELUJAH!!!!

When I went that full month without weighing and did not lose a single pound I said from then on that I did not care when weighed! I don't care if I weigh once a day, once a week, or twice a day!
Just as long as I NEVER NEVER go without weighing for a long period of time again..
For me keeping track of what my weight is on an ongoing basis seems to be what works for me..
It is not for everyone..I am not obsessed with it..I left 2 scales in my house for 30 days and did not touch either one of them..So I don't have an issue with scales..I just get on it whenever I have that feeling that I want to know what my weight is!
So I stepped on it yesterday and it read 177.5 That is 1.5 pounds down from Monday..Today it was at 178
So I think as long as I keep doing what I am doing I will get out of the 70's very soon!
I don't think that it will take me as long as the 80's did!!!!
especially since I am going to be adding in some weights which I did not do any of last month!
Just light weights!! Nothing too heavy..I don't want to over-do it then my fatigue gets out of control and I am right back where I started..

For some reason I started thinking about something today and I really far away from this so I don't know why...
What happens when you reach goal??
I mean do you then just keep working towards becoming more toned? My original goal was to get to 140..But I can easily see getting to 140 and not being happy with that and constantly trying to lower that number and it being this vicious cycle! Almost becoming an addiction..I can see that happening!
I am sure that happens for many people..Wanting to see how much they can lose and never being happy with the number on the scale..I have lost 25 pounds but yet when I see myself on Cam I still see this really overweight person and wonder how did I ever weigh over 200 pounds!!!!! Will I still feel this way when I lose another 25 pounds??