I had a pretty rough night with the MS (multiple sclerosis)..So when I feel this CRAPPY I just want to eat!
I have also been on a really wacky sleep schedule for a really long time.
The holidays have passed and I thought that I could finally get back to some normalcy when it comes to my eating.
When I was first diagnosed with MS in 2004 I had this DEEP burning in my chest and I have had it 24-7 for 7 years. Some days are worse then others and when it is really bad at night I cannot sleep.
So when I sit alone by myself I EAT to numb the emotional pain of having to deal with this. I can explain it till I am blue in the face.But only I know what it feels like and there really is no point.
I have been to multiple docs and been on multiple meds..Nothing has ever worked but narcotic pain meds and I hate taking them! But it is my only choice.But even they do not always take away all the pain. So I can sit and cry all night and run around like someone on fire.Or I can eat to numb the pain. On the really bad night I choose to eat and last night I chose to eat!! I have only had about 2-3 of these really bad EATING days in 17 weeks and last night and rolling over into this morning is one of them.
I HATE it but I hate the burning worse!
This is what I have had since I woke up yesterday...At 5PM
Coffee Drink Mix
Whole grain Pasta
Turkey breast ground
Snacks between 12am -11am
3 bowls no sugar added ice cream with honey
6 Hershey Kisses
A small Bowl 3?? servings Sun Chips
2 Slices whole grain toast 1TBS PB 1TBS SF Jam,Butter Spray 1 Tbs Honey
Coffee drink 50 cal
I have no idea what my calories for the day are..
I am going to bed soon..
I am weighing tomorrow( Wednesday) and I do not have high hopes for the scale.
I am going to have to try and even out my calorie and sugar intake for the next few days!
Looks like I am going to be doing some serious FASTING!!!
If anyone has any recommendations please let me know..
I feel horrible..
I have the worst headache. I clearly ate wayyyy to much sugar!
But...What's done is done!
I am so tired now I have not choice but to go to sleep burning or not.